To all my dearest blog-fans..
Hmm.. I wonder if you guys have noticed I've been blogging lesser & lesser as the months go by.. :p
Yeah.. I admit I've been blogging lesser these days & in fact, I hardly mention about my personal life for some time already..
*Sorry for not being so open as before about my personal life.. but I've learnt my lesson after the ugly experience I had when I shared about it many months back..*
Well.. of course, there are many reasons why I hardly share about my personal life anymore..
1 of them is that there has been many changes in my personal life.. my personal life has not been the same for some time already.. especially, recently..
In fact, for the few of you who have been my close friends & "brothers" for many years, do know what's going on in my personal life, ya?
All I can ever mention here is.. I've finally made a decision, after all these years, & I am finally "sticking" to it..
No matter what people say..
I don't care about what people say, how they see me, or even dare point their fingers at me or put the blame on me anymore..
I'm human.. so is everybody..
They may say I'm selfish.. but they don't see that people had been selfish towards me all these years.. I've tried not to be selfish, to be selfless, only care for others all these years, that's why I went thru' what I went thru' all these years..
We all made mistakes some point in life.. And I dare say everytime I made 1, I always dare own up to it & try to make amends for it..
Surprisingly, the decision I've made this time, my family members are no longer that affected cos' they are also for it.. guess they got sick & tired of seeing me going thru' the same cycle over & over again thru' the years..
In fact, now that I'm happier, they are happier to see me happier too..
I know what I went through, been through, gone through, tolerated through, suffered through, but I also know how much I've tried, did my best etc..
I've had good times.. appreciated it.. cherished it.. loved it.. will always remember it.. hoped it had lasted.. did my best ( I myself know I did )..
But sad to say, I've had more bad memories than good ones..
That's why I've finally made the decision.. after so many years..
I'm tired.. really tired emotionally.. emotionally drained..
Everybody has got their needs.. so do I..
All I know is I've did my best.. in everything..
Come what may..
I'm gonna make the best of the remaining years of my life while I can..
